So I know that I’ve been a little Mia lately, but… I promise it was all for good reasons. There has been an influx of emails/text/messages that last 3 weeks and I am SORRY if I haven’t responded to you and feels like I’ve been ignoring you, but I promise you that I wasn’t. So here I am! To talk about where I’ve been and the series of events that has lead to where I'm today. I’ve collected all the messages and questions (and don’t worry they will stay anonymous) and I’ve put them together into this high-level Q&A video.
A few disclaimers before we start:
I will be using the same audio from this video to create a podcast so if I seem to be a little too descriptive it’s because I’m trying to cater to the those that are listening.
There will also be a written version on my blog but I promise this is genuine and written directly from me. If at any point it sounds scripted it’s because I am trying to make sure that the video and the text are aligned AND to keep me on track.
The reason why I’m doing this is that I want to make this accessible on all different platforms.
Alrighty, so I’m going to be doing this as a Q&A session so that I keep it short and concise.
Did you leave your job? If so… UHHHHH…WUT?!
Yes, I did! I resigned 3 weeks ago and I still vividly remember the day I decided to leave. It was on the way to work when I decided that I was going to leave, BUT before I get to that day, let’s travel back a few months. I had been thinking about making a transition into a full-time freelance role for awhile, but of course, the thought of that was just incredibly scary and all the fears kept rushing in with it. Fears such as:
Worried about family/friends thinking I would be making an irresponsible decision
So every time I entertained the idea, I would get overwhelmed with the fears and what-if’s and I was like NOPE NEVER MIND. But then over time as I met more freelancers or seasoned designers and they tell me about a time where they took the jump, I get on this high and get all excited and I’m like OKAY I WANT TO DO IT TOO! But then…………..fears. So I kept pushing away this dream of becoming a freelancer until one day…
Bringing us back to the morning of...the pull was so just so strong that day and my gut kept telling me… Just. Do. It. Krislam. I was on my way to work when I was like…okay...OKAY, I’M GOING TO DO IT!! So I called my boyfriend in panic and told him what my thoughts were (as I do often haha, love you Jay) and he was just like “Totally fine, do what you gotta do I got you no matter what!) and that afternoon I did it!! I am still trying to wrap my head around it, but I’m really proud of myself! :)
But…wait…I thought you were super happy at your job? Or at least it looked that way, what happened!?
I’ll be the first one to tell you that I LOVED my job. I loved everything about it - The people, the work, the company, our leaders, literally everything. And trust me when I say that it was NOT an easy decision for me to leave. Think of it as a novel or a series on Netflix that you have the ability to binge watch in one week. You love this novel/series and you keep rewatching or re-reading parts of the book refusing to finish it because you just don’t want to part with it. That’s exactly what this felt like.
Everything was perfect… the commute, the people, the benefits, etc. But I knew deep down inside that there was something in me that just knew this would be the right decision. Something was telling me to make this jump and the feeling kept getting stronger and stronger and so I was like, yea, I think it’s time. No better time than the present right? My parents are healthy, thank God. I don’t have plans to have kids anytime soon or planning a wedding (And I’m not getting younger) so it just felt right.
And I’m just going to step on my soapbox really quickly because I know there might be some skepticism to this...I loved my company with a passion that burned so long. Even till this day I’m going to be a cheerleader from the side and pushing all my good vibes and thoughts for the success of the company and everyone in it. And truth to be told, I wouldn’t be where I am today without their support. I’d be lying to you if I said I got to where I am today on my own. There are multiple factors in my life that I attribute my success to and the company was a huge part of that. In fact, when I told my team I wanted to pursue this crazy endeavor of mine, they were incredibly happy and excited for me, gave me their blessing and was pretty much the wind beneath wings.
Like I said earlier, it was not easy. Having to close this book or watch the series finale...was hard and I’m still trying to wrap my head around it. But it felt right - this entire moment felt right on both sides.
ALRIGHT, so then…what next?
So, if you’re watching/listening/reading this on my newly revamped website (and if you haven’t already taken a gander, visit krislamchin.com), you’ll notice that I am officially a full-time freelancer! It’s been about 3+ weeks since I started this new endeavor of mine and honestly, it’s been amazing. I obviously still have those fears of running out of money, getting sick with the not so greatest health care and overall making lifestyle changes that I am not accustomed to. But I’m happy and so excited and it’s been so great.
I will also be focusing more of my time on my workshop and expanding to different locations. Hopefully getting some merch and product up and running. I want to push the podcast further… and honestly, there’s just a huge list of things I want to do that I can’t list out in a matter of this video. But I am looking forward to all the people that I’ll meet and work with along the way. Super stoked!
NOW, it’s only been 3 weeks, and I’m not even 100% sure if this whole freelancing gig is something that I’m going to fall in love with… I mean I might hate it for all I know… or fail at it… or whatever it is… but since I’m here I’m going to work my ass off and do whatever I can to overcome challenges and face my obstacles head-on.
So, I don’t know where I’ll be in 6 months, but I know what I want in life and I know where my North Star is… so we’ll see!
HUGE THANK YOU to everyone who has supported me both big and small! (Please watch video OR listen to the podcast to hear thank you’s!)