10 days ago I turned 25. It was also on that day I was finally able to open a letter I wrote to myself when I was 20 years old.
I’ve been going back and forth whether or not I should publish it for the world to see. On the one hand, it’s a very intimate letter for myself that really only pertains to me. But on the other hand, I feel that maybe this could inspire others to write letters to themselves to celebrate wins and indulge in self-reflection.
So here it goes, unfiltered…unedited...just me with my 20-year-old heart.
"Dear 25-year-old Krislam,
LOL, hopefully, you’ve changed your penmanship.
It is September 25, 2012 9:09PM-ish! You’re probably reading this on your 25th birthday, so happy birthday! Hopefully, you don’t lose this letter, but knowing myself, I will. We’ll see.
Waddup 25 year old me! You’re old, haha, JK. Turning 21 in about a week! So crazy how fast life goes by. You accomplished a lot in life before 21.
Incase you need a reminder you…
1) Graduated from FIDM
2) Left Aeropostale
3) Started your career
4) Survived a car accident
5) Got your own car
6) Moved to DTLA
That’s a lot in my opinion and I am beyond blessed and thankful. Oh I should mention that past you (20 year old) is sitting at Syrup with Jordan & Alexa trying to milk the wifi – haha!
Anyways, enough jibber jabber.
At the age of 25 I expect you to still be practicing design. By this time, you would be a 5-year senior designer. You better be kicking ass! If you’re not working at Hypothesis anymore you better be back at school or working somewhere that’s better. (Not that Hypothesis is bad) but hopefully you’ve grown. But all together, I hope you’re still designing. You should be living on your own if not already living with a boyfriend (ooy..) but we’ll see. But for sure you shouldn’t be living with roomies anymore!
Speaking of boyfriend, I’m (20) currently still with Tony and you and I both know that you’re a little uneasy about the relationship, but hopefully you’ll have things settled out and are happy with whoever you are with. (Can you still read this? LOL **Penmanship was getting bad**)
Uhh…you better still have Murfee (Mini Cooper)! Maggies in college by now, hopefully, she ended up in like Harvard or something, haha. Tell her you love her :) (Boshy!) Parent will be 54-55 by now, ugh they’re getting so old LOL hopefully you have kept close contact with them. Remember to always tell them how much they mean to you. You wouldn’t be anywhere without them :)
I know right now I’m struggling with the whole “life-after-death” situation and knowing you – you’re probably still scared but remember to no be afraid. Always remember that God will be there and your family and whatever happens, happens – y’know!? LIVE IT UP! Stop worrying and live, please :)
I hope by the time you’re 25 you’ve learned more than you possibly can and more. I really hope in the upcoming years you will teach yourself and challenge yourself – honestly. Also, I hope you’ve been going out and doing fun and great things. I don’t know what else to say but... in the grand scheme of things…
- Be happy and stay happy
- Stay healthy (essentially)
- Keep designing
- Be kind – stay kind
- Be an awesome daughter, sister, girl friend, friend – everything
- Better be giving back to the parents!
But in all seriousness, I hope your spunk hasn’t left and I hope you’re still funny and weird. YOU BETTER LIKE DISNEYLAND!
Overall – YEAR 2016!? AHHHHH
I hope you’re still doing what makes you happy and always remember that if you’ve gotten this far you can do so much more. So 25-year-old me, you better be doing all those things AND MORE!! Don’t let me down future me! :) Now write a letter to 20-year-old me explaining how amazingly awesome you’ve become!!
Love, Krislam :)
(20 years old)
P.S. As far as money goes…as long as you’re living comfortably then you’re okay. Don’t worry about being rich :) Do what makes you happy!"
Dear 20-year-old Krislam,
(from 25-year-old Krislam)
Yes, your penmanship has gotten MUCH better.
Yes, you’re still a designer…obvi.
A lot has happened in 5years…
I’ll keep it short because I’m going to be writing to 30-year-old me in a little bit.
You would be so proud.
Also, remember Jhomar? Your boss.
He’s going to be your boyfriend. LOL, I KNOW! You live with him now with two puppies. You are living comfortably and life is great. Maggie is studying to be a nurse @ CSULB and the parents…they’re amazing J
Thank you 20-year-old me for looking out.
I am VERY happy & grateful:)
Love you 20-year-old me – it’s going to be one hell of a ride – but you got this!
P.S. 1000000000% not at Hypothesis, LOL.
Also, you upgraded to Bruce from Murfee (Don’t ask -_____-)
Okay, time to write to 30-year-old Krislam !
To be continued...